Ercassie wrote: ↑Wed Sep 17, 2025 6:28 pm
Khabudolgar named the Lady Lôminzil Hazadazra, a nagging thorn of some Haradan isle who had beguiled a noble sealord of Umbar and, unlike Jenahda, continued in the after to impair her partner's fervour for the Shadow. That this deviant element had been allowed to eat away at a committed man's resolve, without repercussion, despoiling his opportunities to produce a male heir, and deigning to diminish his loyalty to all the Shadow influenced, .. had plagued the Blood Priest for more years than he could count. But to cut out such a pestilence without damaging the entire House .. was a delicate affair. If it could be managed as an act indisputable, say, as the will of the Shadow rather than clearly his servants ... yes that would be a goal worth risking. And Jenahda's true people had long known an enmity to those Lôminzil had sprung from. An enmity from long disputed borders and bounties in lands far from Umbar. This was just the sort of deed a woman of her talents could accomplish, for the Temple, in return for what the Shadow had just accomplished for her own personal ambition.
Hazadazra Estate
a few miles North of city limits

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Lôminzil & Avalêazar Hazadazra
(Some years ago)
It began just like any other day. There was no cause to think there might be anything out of the ordinary. Breakfast was served on the
patio beside the pool, a place favored by the lady of the house. Her husband had already gone to the shipyard, because he was expecting a ship to return, and he needed to oversee the unloading of goods, and all those details. That was common, as the Hazadazra family owned a number of ships which made regular trips to import and export goods. This left the ladies of the house to begin their day together, as they usually did.
But today, Lôminzil eyed her plate without eating much, having only slightly picked at it to begin with, but now she was not even willing to nibble at anything, not even the fruit, which was her favorite things.
Ava looked up, halfway through her own breakfast, and frowned to see her mother not eating. She tilted her head in puzzlement. "Ammê?" She asked, questioning this oddity. "Do you not like the food?"
Lômi managed a little smile. "I am not very hungry," She admitted, then cleared her throat, wincing as she discovered that was more painful for her throat.
"Are you alright?" The child questioned in concern, putting down the date she had been about to eat.
Seeing that Ava had seen the wince, she added, "Actually, my throat is feeling a little sore, and I've got a bit of a stomachache. And, I suppose my mouth is a bit sensitive, too."
"You were alright yesterday." Ava frowned. "Should I go and get Eithon?" She asked, referring to one of the slaves owned by their family, an old man who had been healer from Gondor before being captured and sold. He had become a family physician for the Hazadazra family, ever since he was procured by Ava's late grandfather, years ago.
"Oh, it is surely nothing," Lômi sought to assure her, unwilling to trouble the elderly healer without cause. "I probably just caught some mild illness. I will be over it in a day or two, no doubt. Eat your breakfast, and do not worry about me." She paused briefly before adding, as a slight change of topic, "We shall practice with swords today, and after, we can take a swim to cool off." She smiled, knowing that both of them would be drenched in sweat before they'd finished their training session, which was to be expected in the hot, Harad sun. After swimming for a little while, Ava would spend the rest of the morning, and then the early afternoon, studying a variety of other subjects, like history, mathematics, language, and so forth. Such was their usual routine, so there was no reason to think the day would go any differently. Yet.
Ava nodded eagerly, accepting her mother's word for it, and smiled at the plan. Blades were her favorite sort of weapon to train with, and she
loved swimming! Even though she could swim every day, it was always nice to jump into the water just after an intense training session.
"I.. will be right back." Lômi stated as she raised up from her seat, and hurried for the nearest lavatory with urgency. When she returned a little bit later, the woman was slightly pale, but she said nothing about what had occurred, so not to alarm her daughter. But she was rather alarmed, herself.
Ava was just finishing her breakfast. She paused as she tried to determine whether her mother looked too ill to be out of bed, or not. But before she could ask her again if she was alright, Lômi spoke up.
"Ava, please go and get our swords, and I will meet you in the garden courtyard."
Ava frowned slightly, unwilling to leave her mother's side while she looked unwell. "We have slaves we could send, instead." She pointed out what seemed quite logical to her.
Lômi frowned and shot a disapproving look at her daughter. "You do as I told you, Avalêazar Hazadazra." She instructed sternly. She did not have to tell her what the girl already knew. But she also tried to understand how confusing it must be for her, when her mother tried to teach her one way to think, and everyone else in the city did the opposite. Even Ava's father wasn't entirely on board with Lômi's ways. Yet.
"Yes, Ammê." Ava dropped her gaze, a little embarrassed. She hadn't meant it as her mother must have thought. She had only wished to avoid leaving her side... but she realized how she had sounded, talking as if the slaves were nothing, and should be ordered around just because they could. She felt guilty for bringing disappointment to her mother, who she knew was opposed to that way of life.
After Ava had run off to get their practice weapons, Lômi sank onto a lounge chair with her arms wrapped around her middle, wincing slightly in pain. She waited a moment for the stomach pains to pass, or to at least fade somewhat, then she slowly got up and went to meet Ava in the garden.
"You need to angle your sword a little more downward, so that when you block my sword, the blade will simply slide off that way, rather than toward your hand." Lômi corrected her daughter, trying to ignore her own discomfort. She gave her a moment to make the requested adjustment, then nodded in approval, while holding back a little wince as she felt another unusual pain in her stomach. They continued to get steadily worse, and she could not think of what would be causing them. But, not wishing to worry Ava, she tried to hide it and went on with her usual activities, as if nothing was wrong. The day had only just begun, after all. "Good." She nodded in approval as she noted the correction in her weapon. "Now come at me again, and remember to keep your footing like I told you."
Steel clashed against steel, the sound ringing through the
garden courtyard, with the soft bubbling of a fountain playing in the background. Mother and daughter were just beginning their daily sparring. Normally, they would end up traveling all around the fountain in the center, sometimes making their way up or down the
flower-lined path that led to the garden, and all over the place.
Normally, Lômi would hold back her own skill just enough that Ava would not feel overwhelmed, yet still gave her daughter a bit of a challenge in trying to keep up with her. In fact, Lômi was rather pleased with her progress, though her training was far from being complete. Had they been back home... well, in Lôminzil's home... the twelve-year-old would have been training consistently with many others, of multiple ages and skill levels, just as Lômi had as a child. But given that she was the only person around who was qualified to offer such training, and there weren't really any other children around whom she would trust to let her daughter around, she did what she could. Because, although she was raising Ava in a land foreign to her own, she would not break the tradition of her people.
Today, however, she did not have to hold back against Ava. Today, her stomach continued to bother her, getting increasingly worse to the point that, after about half an hour, she found it increasingly more difficult to even keep up with Ava, and her mouth felt so uncomfortably sore that it was distracting, and her throat was burning with pain, making it difficult to even swallow. Lômi began to raise her sword to swing again, but then instead, she ended up doubled over in obvious pain, and gasped as she leaned against the nearby pillar to avoid actually falling down.
Ava stopped short, blinking in surprise at this sight. "Ammê?" She stood frozen in spot, unsure what was happening, and frightened to see her mother behaving as if she were in great pain.
Lômi, with great effort, managed to give her a reassuring smile and forced herself to straighten up slightly. "I am.. alright," She sought to keep Ava from worrying, although there was a strangeness to her voice that she could not explain. The moment she tried to leave the support of the pillar, however, she cried out and collapsed to the ground, sword clattering beside her as she dropped it. She squeezed her eyes shut as if that would shut out the pain, and tried taking slow breaths, which sounded quite raspy, and she ended up coughing as if she needed to clear something out of her throat.
Ava dropped her own sword and rushed to her side. "Ammê! What is it?" She asked, panicked at the sight of her mother looking so ill.
Lômi could only shake her head, unsure how to answer that. Her mouth and tongue felt... weird. Painful. Her coughing turned to retching a little, and to the shock and horror of both mother and daughter, a splatter of blood hit the pathway beneath her.
Ava's eyes widened at this, and she stepped back in alarm. Hastily, she glanced around for someone to help, feeling panicked at whatever was happening to her mother.
At the far end of the path, a slave woman was sweeping the pathway, oblivious to any of this.
"You, slave!" The girl yelled at her. "Get over here! Can you not see that my mother needs help?!" The girl demanded, while frantically motioning the woman to come to them.
The slave woman looked startled as she turned, then hastily rested her broom against the wall and hastened toward them.
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Avalêazar..." Lômi wiped a smear of blood from her lips as she looked up at her daughter with disapproval. Her tongue and mouth hurt, and it felt difficult to maneuver her tongue around the name that it knew so well, yet she still managed to inflect a scolding tone into that one word. The woman shook her head slowly at her daughter as she swallowed painfully. "You do
not.. speak to the staff.. like that, and I expect you.. to apologize." She admonished in a soft, yet scratchy voice. "I will not tolerate such behavior from you.. and you know that."
"Ammê, she's only a slave." Ava reminded her in a frantic tone, as if her mother would have forgotten that the woman was 'only a slave'.
As if she could have forgotten. After all the years Lômi had spent trying to convince her husband to free the people in his employ, to make them paid servants, rather than slaves. So far, she had only managed to succeed in convincing him that kindness was better than cruelty when it came to the way one treated their slaves. "She is a
person, who deserves to be treated with kindness.. in fact, especially
because she is a slave." Lômi reminded her, as the woman was hurrying toward them. "If you have not learned that lesson by now.." She was interrupted by another spasm of pain in her stomach, and began to cough and gag until she threw up. Blood.
Ava could do nothing but watch in horror. She heard her mother's words, but it was as if she was hearing it in a dream. A terrible dream that she could not wake from.
Meanwhile, the slave woman froze briefly, just as shocked as Ava, at the sight of all that blood. "Oh my.." She gasped softly with a hand coming up over her own lips, but she recovered somewhat after a second, and kneeled next to Lômi. She looked a bit shaken by the sight of the blood, but she gently held Lômi's hair back from her face. "What would you have me do, my lady?" She asked shakily.
"Help me.. sit up.. please." Lômi requested shakily. Without hesitation, the older woman helped the younger over to a nearby bench along the walkway, where Lômi remained doubled over, but at least she was off the ground. She managed a weak, shaky smile of thanks at the woman before looking back at her daughter with an expectant expression, arms wrapped around her middle, doubling over a bit in pain. "Ava.." She spoke softly in a 'reminding' sort of tone.
Ava was shaking slightly with panic as she tried to think of what to do, wringing her hands a bit as she tried to find something that she could do. She heard her mother faintly murmur her name, and she knew what she wanted from her, but it took her a moment to snap out of her dazedness. Lowering her hands, she took a shaky breath, swallowing down a little pride, and turned to the slave woman as she felt of Lômi's forehead to find out if she was feverish or anything. "I..I apologize." Ava mumbled. After a glance at her mother, who nodded approvingly, in a way that encouraged her to go on, Ava looked back at the woman and added, "I should not have spoken to you so rudely." She dropped her gaze, a little ashamed to have made her mother disappointed in her. And in a moment like this!
"No one can blame you for being frightened and panicked, dear." The older woman assured her in a surprisingly kind tone, reaching over to pat her shoulder. "It's alright, and thank you for the apology." She knew that most slave masters in this land would never dream of apologizing.
With a little sniffle, Ava sat beside her mother, feeling desperation clawing at her heart. "Ammê... I do not know what to do," She said shakily, then looked up at the slave woman pleadingly. "Please,
please do something. Help her?" She begged, tears in her eyes.
The woman looked doubtfully at Lômi, uncertainty written all over her face as the woman continued clutching her stomach, her every breath raspy from her throat being so raw. She looked at Lôminzil with concern, looking rather frightened by this strange illness, herself. Looking at Lady Hazadazra, she recognized a look in her face that suggested she wanted the girl elsewhere. The servant turned to the young lady. "Why don't you run and find a healer, and I'll stay and take care of your mother?" She suggested, inwardly agreeing that it might be best for the child not to see any more of this.
Ava hesitated, considering arguing that she wanted to stay with her mother. But then she realized that she could run faster than this old woman. "Yes, I'll do that." She replied with a hasty nod. It sounded like a good plan. Any plan was better than no plan, right? She clasped her mother's hand and gave it a little squeeze. "It will be alright, Ammê." She tried to assure her. "We will find out what is wrong with you. You will get better." It wasn't clear if she was trying to reassure her mother, or to comfort herself. But whatever the case, she ran as fast as she could to find Eithon, clinging to that glimmer of hope.

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Zôrrôth & Lôminzil Hazadazra
"How long has it been since you ate?" Zôrrôth asked softly, frowning in concern. He held his wife's hand, sitting next to the bed where she lay. The healer had ordered that she stay in bed as much as possible.
"Nothing, since this morning." Her voice was raw and scratchy, from having coughed so much.
"You should try and get some of this soup down," Her husband suggested.
But Lômi shook her head, eyes closed as she refused the sustenance.
"You need to eat something, darling." He told her, but he set the bowl aside.
"Hurts.. to swallow." She explained quietly. "And, I don't want to..." She hesitated. He had helped her to the lavatory multiple times already, so he knew about the other issue. She didn't need to tell him that she didn't want to encourage more of that.
"Lômi," He began, but then stopped, dropping his head down with a little sigh. He took a moment to ponder the situation. "What have you eaten? Fruit?" He guessed, since he knew she was partial to fruit, and always had at least some sort of fruit with her breakfast.
Lômi managed a faint smile and shook her head. "No. I could only nibble at breakfast. My mouth hurt too much to eat, even then."
Zôrrôth frowned, trying to understand. If she had not eaten her breakfast, then when had she last eaten? "Then, what did you eat?" He wondered, trying to determine if she'd taken any sort of nutrition in, today.
"I.. am not sure what to call it. It was what you left on my nightstand." She answered before another spasm of pain assailed her stomach, making her curl up in the bed, holding her stomach. Her eyes squeezed shut as she groaned in pain. This was far worse than the labor pains she had endured giving birth to their daughter.
Zôrrôth watched helplessly as his wife suffered in obvious agony. He was worried, but also puzzled. "On the nightstand?" He asked, trying to make sense of that, for he couldn't place what she was referring to.
Lômi's breath shuddered as she tried to recover from the intense pain in her guts. Slowly, dark eyes, damp with involuntary tears, looked up to meet those of the man she loved. "You know," She murmured. "The nougat, or fudge, or whatever you call it." He often left little gifts like that for her. Tasty treats that he thought she might like, so that she awakened to find a thoughtful surprise awaiting her on a saucer, under a little glass dome. It had not seemed the least bit odd when she woke this morning to see another such delicious surprise, although that one
had been slightly different from his usual gifts. Still, she had been intrigued by it and had found that it was quite delicious.
But Zôrrôth was troubled to hear this. "Lômi," He felt as if an icy claw gripped his heart. "
I didn't leave you anything this morning." He informed her softly, eyes widening. "I was running late, and..." He shook his head, feeling a sort of terror that he had never known before, which rendered him unable to finish his thought as he stared at his wife in dismay.
This news sent alarm coursing through Lômi's heart as well. "If you did not leave it.." She widened her eyes as the implications settled in her mind.
Zôrrôth wrapped her hand in both of his, bringing it up against his forehead as he dipped his head down. "No..." He uttered the word softly, but it was filled with emotion.
Lômi took a shaky breath. "We are beset with enemies, all about us," She murmured. "But which one would have a reason to do a thing like this?"
"And, the ability," Zôrrôth mumbled, raising his head just enough to press his lips to her hand, then he straightened and looked at her. "We can figure those details out, later. Right now, we must find an antidote to this poison. Before..." Before it was too late, he couldn't bring himself to say, and instead, he swallowed.
Even as he trailed off from saying it, Lômi again doubled over on her side, curled into fetal position with her one arm wrapped around her stomach, the other gripping her husband's hand tightly. For a long moment, she panted in short, rapid breaths, until the wave of pain had passed. She let out a shaky breath as she looked up at him, eyes filled with pain and fear of whatever was happening. She had been suffering from the poison's effects for hours, without realizing it was poison. Their window of time, if there was one, was probably closed. Already, she knew that her body was damaged inside. She'd been vomiting blood frequently throughout the day, and she often had to rush to the lavatory for other business, which was also filled with blood. "I.. think it is.. already.. too late, Darling." She murmured, trembling slightly.
But Zôrrôth was not yet willing to accept it. He shook his head adamantly. "No.. don't say that." He gently brushed a section of her hair back behind her ear. "We'll get through this, you'll see." He tried to promise in a desperate voice.
Lômi smiled sadly at him. "Darling, I love you," She brought her free hand up to caress his face. "But.. I really do not believe I can recover from this." She added faintly.
"Please, don't.."
"Zôrrôth," She looked him in the eye with seriousness. "You know it, too." She said softly, regretfully.
"No." He insisted stubbornly, standing up. He went to the window and frowned out at the night, his hands clenched into fists. He would not accept it. "I'll seek out other healers. We'll find a cure, no matter how long it takes." He couldn't help but feel anger toward whoever had dared to do this to his wife.
Lômi waited patiently until he finished talking. "Zôr," She said in a hoarse whisper. "We need to talk.. about after.. I'm gone."
"No, we need to talk about how we're going to cure this," He began saying, but then she began gagging again. Zôrrôth hastened to her side again and grabbed the bucket, holding it for her as he watched, with heart-wrenching misery, while she vomited more blood into the bucket. Blood, and stomach acid. That meant.. her stomach was bleeding, didn't it? And bleeding a lot. He closed his eyes as if it would shut out the pain of seeing his wife suffer like this. Silently, he offered her a handkerchief to wipe her mouth when she was finished.
There was a moment of silence as Lômi looked at him, waiting for him to acknowledge the obvious. That she was obviously bleeding inside. She couldn't eat, and she could barely drink even water. She was coughing up blood from her throat, vomiting blood from her stomach, and passing blood from.. other areas as well. It seemed as if everything inside, from her mouth to the other end, was damaged, and it was only getting worse.
He avoided her gaze for a long moment. Tears threatened at the corners of his eyes.
Lômi rested her other hand upon both of his, so that husband and wife clasped both hands together between them. "Promise me something." She requested softly.
Something in the tone of her voice stopped him from further protest. He slowly turned toward her without meeting her gaze, though his own stomach seemed to clench up in anxiety and fear and premature grief. Because deep down, he realized that he was going to lose her. The poison was working quickly, destroying her insides. After a long moment, he lifted his eyes up to meet hers. "I would do anything for you, my dear." He assured her softly.
When Zôrrôth left the room, he was heavy of heart. He wanted to continue to deny what was happening, but it was impossible by now. She was suffering, dying slowly in terrible, prolonging agony. Still, unwilling to give up without trying whatever he could, Lord Hazadazra sent Eithon, the healer of Gondor, to tend to her and do whatever he could. Then, according to her wishes, he sent for their daughter with a message that her mother wished to tell her good night before she went to sleep. Then he slipped out into the night with an errand to accomplish.
The healer did all that he could for her. Zôrrôth brought another, local healer of Umbar in as well, to try her hand and see if she could do any better. But Lômi's condition continued to worsen through the night, and nothing seemed able to help her. By morning, there was no more question in Lôminzil's mind that she was going to die. She had never heard of a poison which achieved such terrible results in a victim, but something in her heart told her she would not be able to recover from this. Perhaps it was 'woman's intuition', or perhaps there was simply a certain sense that came over a person when death was upon them. She didn't know how she knew, but she felt certain of it, even if she had been trying to deny it so far. Realizing that she had been poisoned... well, that seemed to her to finalize it in her mind. She was going to die. It was only a matter of time. The only question really was, how long it would take before this poison claimed her life? And, how much more of this misery would she suffer before the end?
She still could not eat anything at breakfast time the following morning, and in fact, her mouth and throat were in terrible condition. Her gums, tongue, throat, and everywhere else inside her mouth was sore and bleeding. But Zôrrôth had fixed a cup of tea for her, and now it sat on the nightstand, steeping, and cooling enough for her to manage. "Are you sure about this?" He had to ask, his voice filled with sorrow and apprehension.
"We have been through this," She reminded him in a scratchy whisper, which was all she could manage now, the words difficult to manage with her tongue and lips so damaged, but she somehow did it, even if the words were not as clear and precise as she had used to speak them. "Would you have me keep suffering.. for who knows how long, so that you can hold onto me that much longer?" She coughed weakly. "Would you watch as I waste away in misery, and my pain grows worse day by day?" She did not want to go through this argument again. "If a horse had broken its leg, would you not-"
"I know." He interrupted softly, looking away. His heart was breaking, but he knew she had a point. She was in terrible pain, and it was clear to him by now that the healers had no hope of healing her. There was no way of knowing how much longer this would drag out, either. There were evidently only two choices; a slow, agonizing death, which seemed to involve her organs being destroyed from the inside, causing her tremendous pain and distress, preventing her from eating, which meant she would waste away.. not to mention the terror of having to live through such an ordeal.. until her eventual death. Or a swifter, painless death in her sleep, administered out of mercy from a loved one. He hated to be put in such a position. But he had promised her that if it became clear that there was no hope.. he would help her to pass in a more peaceful manner. That he would ensure that her death was gentle, rather than what her unknown enemy had intended. Wordlessly, Zôrrôth helped her to sip her tea.
She could hardly keep it down, but she managed to swallow most of the cup, tiny sips at a time. She wasn't sure how much of it she threw back up, but she offered a tiny, weak smile of gratitude to her husband. "Thank you." She murmured as he helped her lay back on the pillows. "Take comfort in that we can say goodbye before I am unable to speak anymore." She told him, trying to find some positive to this whole thing.
Unable to speak, himself, at the moment, due to the lump in his throat, Zôrrôth nodded as he set the cup aside, then gently caressed the side of her face. He drew a shaky breath and forced a little smile. "I love you, Lómënsil Tôdaphêl," He whispered, using her given name, from before she had come to Umbar as his wife. They had adapted her name to its Adunaic equivalent, because he had feared that their neighbors and peers would have entirely flipped if they had known that her original name was in the elven high tongue, Quenya. That he, a lord of Umbar, would use her elvish name, was meaningful to her.
Lômi smiled faintly. "Lómënsil
Hazadazra, you mean." She corrected him softly, squeezing his hand lightly. "I love you, too, Zôrrôth." She answered sleepily. Her eyelids were growing heavy as the tea made her sleepy. "One more promise?" She asked softly.
Zôrrôth smiled sadly. "What is it?"
"Never let Ava know.. about this." She requested softly, a look of motherly concern in her eyes. She did not know how their daughter might feel about it, and she would not want her to feel any sort of bitterness toward her father because he had done as Lômi had begged of him.
"Of course." Zôrrôth was relieved that was her request, for he had already had the same thought. "No one besides you and I will ever know." He promised her softly. This was a secret their daughter did not need to know about. "As far the rest of the world is concerned, it was the enemy's poison which claimed your life. As far as I am concerned, as well." He added. Because if it had not been for that... she would have lived for many more years.
Lômi nodded sleepily and tried to smile at him as her eyes drifted closed. "Good. Take care of her, darling." She had already said her goodbyes to Ava the night before, and she was glad, because she would not want her daughter to see her in her worsened state. The girl could hold onto her memory of how Lômi had been
before the poison. Not after.
Zôrrôth leaned forward and kissed her forehead gently, a tear rolling down his cheek. "Sleep now, my beloved. May you find your way swiftly to... that other place you tell me of." He whispered in a whisper, his voice breaking with emotion. "One day, we shall meet again, there." He held her hand clasped between both of his, bowing his head over it with his forehead resting on their hands. Tears slid down his face, and gradually the rasping of her breath faded to silence. He wept quietly for a while, until eventually her lifeless hand began to grow cold. He straightened at last, laying her hand gently upon the covers so that both of her hands rested together on her middle. Then he wiped his eyes, poured out whatever was left of the tea, and left the room. He paused to speak to the first slave he encountered, asking that she please inform the healer that the Lady was no longer in need of his aid.
Next, he went to locate his daughter so he could break the grievous news to her, because that was not the sort of news you send by messenger. They were both going to have a difficult adjustment to make, without Lômi. As hard as it would be for him, he realized it would likely be harder for Ava, since mother and daughter had always been very close. And she was still a child, who would no longer have a mother. At least he and his daughter could comfort each other in this tragic time of grief. And after their grieving had been done...
someone would pay for this, he vowed. He just had to figure out
who.